Home Sweet Home

Just a quick note to say that I am back home in Missouri. I will update more and fill in details as soon as I have some free time. Thanks for the prayers, keep them coming!

Parties and Goodbyes

A bunch of friends had a Going-Away party for me yesterday and we had a lot of fun. It was nice to have them there and enjoy the friendship that they have provided through the past couple years. I am so grateful to all of these people for the strength and courage they have given me. I could not have made it to this point without them. Some people were absent from the party because of other circumstances but I feel the same way about them. As excited as I am to leave all of this behind and move on to another part of my life, it's still hard to say goodbye and know that I may never have the chance to spend time with them again.

I have had several interested parties looking at my house this week and I'm praying earnestly for someone to actually buy it. I am leaving here in 12 days so things need to speed up!

I had another small spell of irregular heartbeats yesterday but it didn't last long. I go back to the doctor in 1 week so maybe he will be able to give me some answers then. Thank you for all of your prayers and well-wishes, it does my heart good (literally).

"Normal"

I received my test results from the doctor today, apparently everything is 'normal'. I am extremely doubtful that this is the case considering the circumstances. I have requested a copy of the lab results to compare to my previous tests which should provided a more accurate representation of what is going on currently. I am still on the antibiotics for another 3 weeks. I was also given the name of a specialist back in Missouri so if I'm not better by the time that I get moved home, I will make an appointment to see him.

I talked with the realtor's office today and they are going to be showing my house twice this week so pray hard!!

Prayers

I have a lot going on right now in my life so I need prayers, and lots of them. I went to the doctor yesterday and I'm going back in the morning for some routine tests. When I have more information I will pass it along. Right now I'm also trying to pack up all my stuff, sell my house, find a job, and not lose my mind in the process.

Officially I have 20 days of work left but in reality I have a meeting on Tuesday morning and that will be the end for me. I'm excited about moving on and seeing what else is out there in my future but I'm also very nervous to not have any set plans. I am a perfectionist and somewhat compulsive about order and routine. Having no idea what my future holds is quite scary.

I know that God has a plan for me (Jeremiah 29:11) and I know that it will be better than I could ever imagine!

Breathe

I had a long and stressful week but now I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Technically I have 25 days left of work but in theory I will be finished next week when all of my sports are finished. I feel like I need to breathe and slow down before I run out of time and out of energy to accomplish the things in life that are actually important. I have not found a job yet but some things are still in the works so I'm pretty optimistic. I am also still trying to sell my house which has proven harder than I imagined it would be. The realtor seems to think that it will sell quickly but that's what he's been telling me for the last 2 months.

Health-wise, I'm not really sure how I'm doing. I am still not sleeping more than a couple hours a night so I think that is effecting everything else. Over the past few weeks I have noticed what feels like heart palpitations but I don't have an irregular heartbeat or any other symptoms, it just makes me feel a little funny for a while and then it goes away. If anyone has any ideas about this or what may be causing it I would love to hear them. I plan on finding a doctor when I get moved back to Missouri since I don't currently have a doctor in the area. Until then I am just going to take it easy any not exert myself too much.

A lot of people around me are going through some tough times right now and I'm asking for prayers for me and for them on their behalf.