Downhill slide (It's long and I'm sorry)

I have not been getting better but the downhill slide is not as steep as it was last week. I am having a lot of pain and semi-paralysis on my right side. My arm and leg just feel like dead weight and very heavy but I can still walk. Writing is difficult but if I go slow and think about it hard then I can do it. The writing is also compounded by the fact that I have been having the cognitive problems which cause me to forget my words and when I do remember them, I can't always remember how to spell them (be glad this has spell check or you would have a difficult time reading it).

I talked with a friend on Sunday night that also has Lyme disease but he is about 3 months ahead of me in the treatment process so he was able to give me some insight and a lot of encouragement. He said that he also went through this with the particular medicine that I am on now but that it did get better. He was actually doing worse than I am in some areas so I have a little bit of hope.

I know that I need to stay positive and realize that this means the medication is working but it's so difficult to stay positive when you feel worse than when you started. I was told by someone at church that if I would just think positive that I would feel better. It's a good thing that my right arm isn't working well or I might have punched him. Happy thoughts aren't going to cure me. I know that they will help, but sometimes you just don't want to be happy and other times it's just not possible to be happy.

On another note ..... My house still has not sold. The couple that might have made an offer has fallen through so now I'm back to square one. My contract with the realtor ends in 1 week and then I'm going to try and sell it own my own which will be difficult since I'm 8 hours away. If you know of anyone moving to the Jackson or Henderson, TN area please let me know or send them to this WEBSITE. It is also listed on Craig's List and several other sites. I have a family member who is a realtor in Chattanooga but there isn't much that he can do from that far away either so he has been the one so set up the websites for me. Thank God for family!!!

My brother's soon-to-be father-in-law is in the hospital right now and they aren't quite sure what is going on. He went in to have his kidney stones removed and during surgery he started bleeding internally. He was in ICU for 4 days and now he's in a private room but he's not recovering like he should be. My brother and his fiancee had to go back to Arkansas for school on Sunday so that was pretty hard on her to leave him. Please keep this family in your prayers.

On a happy note, my cousin had her twin girls a couple weeks ago and a great friend of mine had her baby girl last week. All is going well and I can't wait to meet all the new babies!

Thanks for you thoughts and prayers!