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Tuesday, September 18

Stress=No Sleep

After I saw my doctor almost 2 months ago and got on some good sleeping pills I had been getting at least 8 hours of sleep a night which was way up from the 2 or 3 that I had been dealing with before. I thought that I had this problem solved. Until last week. Last week I started coverage again for one of the local high schools and now I am back to not sleeping well at all. I thought that maybe it was time to up my dose of sleepy meds but that didn't help either. I have come to the conclusion that this is a direct result of the stress of covering sports again. Now, for those of you who know me pretty well I'm sure that you are not shocked by this. But for the others who may not know me as well, I take my job WAY to seriously and personal. If a kid gets hurt if will bother me for days, maybe weeks or years depending on the severity, trying to sort it all out in my head. On Friday I had to air-lift a kid to the hospital and it has been bothering me ever since. The kid is now recuperating at home but that experience will be with me forever. Just like the time in college when one of the athletes broke their neck, or when I had someone almost sever their finger in the weight room, or when I had a janitorial staff member have a heart attack and die in the gym after a basketball game. Those things have stuck with me for years and I don't see that changing anytime soon. I'm not someone who can easily detach and leave those things at work when I go home. I am an over-analyzer and a perfectionist so being in situations that seem to be out of my control are hard to deal with.

All of this to say that I am not sleeping well and I don't know what to do about it. I'm afraid that if I go back to not sleeping then I will start to get worse again. I can't go back there, I can't go through all of that again. I need advice. Please help.

1 comment:

ttulizzy said...

I love that you care for your athletes so much and that makes you you!

This advice may not help at all..but here it is.

WORK stays at WORK.

Home stays at home.

Remember how Ryan has the 30 minute time frame to be mad about losing basketball games? You have 30 minutes to analyze/stress/think about your kids. Say a prayer, leave it behind you. I've never seen you do anything less than your absolute best when emergencies occur.

Miss you!